Thursday, June 28, 2012

China - Day 13 - LAST DAY IN CHINA!!!

Today was our final day in China.  As much as I want to go home, I can't believe that it is really coming to an end.  In less than 24 hours I will be boarding a plane for the USA with a beautiful baby girl that I am so honored to call my daughter.  I'm surprised to say that I have mixed feelings about it.  I am ecstatic that I will be coming home to family and friends that are already madly in love with this child that they have never met, but sad for all that Maggie will never know.  Although I know that her life with me will be much better than she ever could have had in the rural area of China where she is from, I am sad for all that she will never know.

I am sad that she will never know the circumstances that led her to become an orphan.

I am sad that she spent the first year of her life in a orphanage.

I am sad that she will never know who her birth family is.

I am sad because I am certain there is a mother out there that yearns for the child she carried for nine months and hopes that she is safe and warm and loved.

I am sad that her birth family will never know how much she is loved already.

I am sad.

But, yet...I am so happy.

I am happy that I have been blessed with such a beautiful and gentle child!

I am happy that she already recognizes me as the one who loves her and will meet her every need and that she cries when I walk out of sight!

I am happy that she is the first thing I see when I open my eyes in the morning!

I am happy that my sweet girl has come so far in such a short time!

I am happy that I have been chosen to be her mom.  Forever!

I am happy!

My happy, happy girl!!

I love her right down to her sweet little toes


 We went swimming again today and I'm pretty sure that just like me, my girl is going to love the summer time!!  She had a blast and was kicking and splashing all over the place.  We spent some quiet time together just enjoying our last day in China and I told her over and over again how much I love her and that I promise to take care of her forever.



Goodbye China Hotel!!!


Tomorrow morning we will be picked up at 7am to begin the final step in a long six year process.

Thank you to everyone who followed our adventures in China.  We loved your emails, comments, texts and phone calls and it made me realize how lucky I am.  How lucky we are.

I'm bringing my girl home...Maggie at last!!

Much love to you all!!!  Next stop - USA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 comments:

  1. Congratulations, Suzie!! She is just darling and I am so happy for you and your family!! Best of luck on the trip home!

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  2. Suzie, Chris, Maggie have a safe trip home. We love you and can't wait to see you.

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  3. Hopefully you are home safe! Congratulations on your new daughter! What a long wait! (ours was less than 3 years - LID 01/27/06). Have fun and enjoy family life!

    Alyzabeth's Mommy

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